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autumn · Joined: 18 Jul 2006 Posts: 11

Hi everyone, I do apologize if I'm posting this in the wrong section. I've been searching for this kind of Forum for a long time, and finally someone led me here. I don't believe in coincidences, I believe it's because the time has come for me to learn the truth about myself. Be it imaginary, or the real thing, I need to know. I don't believe I have any psychic powers, but at the same time, I cannot explain the phenomenon that I've gone through/still going through. There are so many strange things that I have encountered (yes, I do consider them strange) and I kept them all this while because I'm not sure if anyone would believe me. I have a list of these strange things, and no, I'm not making them up, here there are. I'm sorry because this post is quite long.

1. When i was in high school (14 or 15 if I'm not mistaken), I seemed to know when the phone would rang, who's gonna call next, and there was even this one time when I was on the phone with a classmate, and I was thinking about this certain name, and right after that, like probably 1 second later, my friend actually blurted the name and well, you could guess how I felt.

2. When I turned 16, I used to know exactly when the teachers would ask me questions, or the person who's sitting next to me. Don't ask me to explain it, I don't know. The thing is, I just knew when (the turn was random by the way). I also knew exactly what questions the teachers had in mind and that gave me enough time to search for the answers. When my friend who sat next to me asked me how I knew, I could never tell her the answer.

3. Then when I was in my late teen, I used to do readings for family and friends - for fun. They will give me their bfs/gfs names and how the physical looks like, and I would tell them what kind of a person their bf/gf is. I could them what their bfs/gfs like or don't like, specifically - not in general. I just focused, and objects flashed in my mind. As I said, I never took it seriously. In fact, I was hoping they would tell me that I was wrong, because I was just playing charlatan like Whoopi Goldberg in Ghost. Well you can imagine what a surprise it was to me, when they came back from meeting their gfs/bfs and they asked me how the hell did I know those personal stuff about their gfs/bfs, that even they didn't know about. Some of them was even sure that I was using some kind of secret method. I was getting more names day by day that I finally quitted because it was draining me out and because it was somehow scary as well. I was a charlatan alright, that I could explain to them, but how could I explain all the accuracy?

4. When I was in my early 20's, we had this crazy washing machine at home that kept sounding like a broken record for years, everytime it's being used. So one day while it was giving that weird noise again, I was sitting in the kitchen, watching it and was lost in deep thought. I was just talking to myself - How nice it would be if the weird sound were to stop. Then I went upstairs and forgot all about it. When I came down a few minutes later, I had one hell of a shock in a lifetime - the weird noise which has been bugging everyone for years, has suddenly stopped out of the blue. I thought, ok, that was a great coincidence (as I said, I don't believe in coincidences, but what other explanation do I have?).

As time goes by, I finally realized and accepted that these things do happen, but what I am pissed of at is, I cannot explain why or how it could happen. For example, I could be thinking - 'oh, how nice if the electricity is back on', and the next minute, wham, it's there. Or - 'oh, damn you, I wish you fall off the bicycle!' Well, I'm not all sugar and spice, and everything nice...

Something that I noticed, all these things only happen under 2 circumstances. i) If/when I am lost in deep thought about it and at the same time, I'm not even aware that I'm thinking of it. ii) Not in deep thought, but still thinking of it, lightly. A-spur-of-the-moment kind of thing, and in the next minute, I just forget all about it.

The thing is, it will ONLY happen if I don't even realize that I am thinking of it. If I am aware that I'm thinking of it, it won't happen (except once or twice). Now the worst part is, nowadays I have to cancel any negative thoughts as soon as I'm aware that I'm thinking of it. Why? Because God knows why, the more I'm getting older, the stranger it becomes. It no longer depends on - 'it will ONLY happen if I don't even realize that I am thinking of it'. Nowadays, it happens even if I am fully aware that I'm thinking of it! So someone help me before I go crazy because you don't know how tiring it is to cancel any negative thoughts you have every day. Do you know how many negative thoughts we have per minute? Try to cancel them every hour or so. It's a miracle I have not been put into an asylum.

5. I tend to know what or how others are feeling even if I don't see them, for example - online chatting. I can tell exactly what their feelings/intentions are and it makes me feel very uncomfortable, moreover if they are physically sitting in front of me. At times, I hate having these feelings, because if the person is in great distress, I feel it too. I avoid reading any non-fiction sad articles, because it affects me too much. At one point, I was reading a poetry written why someone who committed suicide, and I felt that author's feelings of emptiness and sadness, I was down for weeks. It took almost all my energy and strength to bounce back.

When I was a kid, things would break or suddenly went out of order in my hands. Radio, toys, window pane - you name it. Especially anything that's made of glass. My family used to scolded me because they thought I did it on purpose. Even until now, I have to be very careful with anything I hold. Just holding a bottle for instance, could cause it to break without reason, which is just pure crazy because I ain't do nothing to it except holding it lightly.

Last year, I started to have colored dreams. And I started to have weird dreams that I've never had before. At one point, I had three different dreams at the same time. I could also be awake in my dreams, and I realize that I'm dreaming, but I just continue to sleep anyway. One of the weird dreams that I had and has just materialised - the tsunami in Indonesia that has just happened recently. But I'm waiting for a bigger one. This time, much more worst than the 2004. And this time, it will involve the state I'm living in. (I'm not an Indo by the way)

My question - I know I don't have any psychic power, so I just wanna know, what are the logic explanations for all the things above that have happened to me and still happening? I need to know why it's happening and what made it happened. It is irritating to let things happen to you and knowing that you can't control them. I despise not being in control. I want to be in control of my life but I don't know how I should go about it or where I should start. Especially having to cancel all these negative thoughts all day long to avoid it from really occurring, is driving me nuts.

Any kind-hearted soul out there, I need some advice please. Thank you in advance, I greatly appreciate it.

kaybee · Joined: 27 Jan 2006 Posts: 43 Location: Colorado

Greetings Autumn...It would seem that you are very psychic, empath and outstanding at manifesting. Enjoy what some people work very hard to develope. Blessings~**Kaybee**~

autumn · Joined: 18 Jul 2006 Posts: 11

Thanks for your kind words kaybee. I would feel at ease, if only it were true... Though I cannot explain what's happened in the past, the present, or the future, I have a hard time believing that I am psychic, because I really don't think I am. I'm looking for some logic answers, that can probably be explained in a scientific way. But thanks again for your input, I really appreciate it.

AstralAspirant · Joined: 18 Jun 2006 Posts: 17

autumn · Joined: 18 Jul 2006 Posts: 11

AstralAspirant · Joined: 18 Jun 2006 Posts: 17

autumn · Joined: 18 Jul 2006 Posts: 11

Hey Astral, do you know how can one stop looking into things? I mean, not that I was trying to invade into other people's private life, it just happens. I didn't ask to know, I just know things about people, and when I tell those things to them, they freak out and tend to be afraid of me as if I'm a closet-monster or something. Is there a way to not know?

Some people are trying so hard to hide their true feelings, they've been doing it well, fooling everyone around and suddenly, a stranger comes and reveal their innermost feelings to them, I'd freak out too if I were them.

What would you do if you know that the person you're talking to is acting up? Example, someone who looks happy outside, but inside, he's crushing (is that the right word?), all sad and confused about his life. What would you do if you could feel his sadness and emptiness? His burden? How will you be able to help him when even his loved ones don't know what he's feeling? He's struggling, and there's no one around him who knows what he's going through. Not even his girl friend.

The worst part is, how do you tell him that you know? (Without him freaking out and probably run miles away, thinking you're a devil worshipper or some witch who practises voodoo). I mean, one can't just go up to him and say - 'Stop acting. I know how you really feel inside. This isn't the real you.'

What would you do? Pretend you don't know anything and walk away? How do you choose what to tell or what not to tell?

If I have a choice, I prefer not to know. Crying or Very sad

AstralAspirant · Joined: 18 Jun 2006 Posts: 17

autumn · Joined: 18 Jul 2006 Posts: 11

kaybee · Joined: 27 Jan 2006 Posts: 43 Location: Colorado

Dearest Autumn...It sounds as though you are doing a pretty good job at isolating yourself. I have been following your thread and your frustration comes through loud and clear. There has been some very good suggestions in response to your dilema. Yes the vibrations come from outside, but you can block the reception of anything that you want. I used to see dead people all the time. Scared the sh-- out of me. I haven't seen one for 20 years now. I can hear and feels things, gifts that I am grateful for. DO THE MEDITATON!!! During this time, surround yourself in God'd loving white light. Tell God, your spirit guides, angels to tone down your abilities. Visualize this happening. The pyschic suggestion is a good one. I have read everything on Sylvia Browne, Sonia Choquette, James van Praugh, Doreen Virtue. There are many other great ones. As far I as I am aware, their gifts are unmatched. I believe Sylvia has written about abilities that go haywire. Another suggestion was to visit a pychic. A must do for you. All we can do on this forum is to offer you our experiences and suggestions. We do this with love and good intent. Best of luck to you Autumn. ~*Blessings*~ Kaybee.

skynetpuma · Joined: 07 Jan 2006 Posts: 26

hi , i am amazed that i can know about a person like you , maybe bacause i am excersising to develop all the abilities that you have.
What i can advice you , is that you should reach balance, a balance only with yourself.
Everyone is a infinite universe , and for mantaining the universe you need to balance you internal opposite forces that are fighting.
You say that you want to reach a logical explanation , but even if you create one for yourself , it will not be the complete truth , because you will tend to partialize , either trying to thing that are the outside energies around you that torment you , or yourself that is full of doubts and contradictions, when maybe both are truth.
Logic divides the universe in 2 answers , and for existing must discriminate the other option, what will solve only half of the problem.
You have a gift , maybe you lack self control.
i think that you feel the energies , but this enegies help to dissistabilize your inner energies , so you need balance.
Dont be afraid or inquisitive about the dark things that you see , they are normal, if you feel bad things in others, know that they in some way are creating that or are not concerned , so maybe others are taking charge of things. You should not make stress in you , became a healer , but first a healer of youself , because few people know you really , and if you are hurted or fearful , you will atract that enegies.
You need to integrate all the aspects of you , and put them to work, so this will not hurt you.
The answer in in you , dont question to you , feel yourself as you feel others , even if there are things that you dont like give them a second look , you have the power to heal them.
I recomend you to sites, maybe will help you , they are www.astro.com , and www.tarot.com , visit them , enjoy.
I wish you real fullfilment and the control that you seek.Blessings.You already have it. Smile

FireStorm · Joined: 27 Oct 2005 Posts: 25

You're being bombarded by these emotions, these energies from others; it is a VERY overwhelming thing to deal with which is why you need to block them out. Many empaths can relate as they've been through it as well. i would suggest that you research psychic shielding techniques rather than turning your heart into wood. Often times when we try to turn our hearts into wood or stone it not only blocks the external out, but it also can prevent you from being you...which would explain why people would call you heartless. In essence you HAVE gotten rid of your heart and, quite frankly, that is no way to live.

It sounds like you're an empath, so now it's time to cope and still manage to live. The others have given you some very good advice; take it. Learn to meditate and slow your thoughts. Learn how to sheild out the emotions and energies from others. In time, you will also learn how to control your shields to allow certain things through.

You said in your first post that you know you have no mental powers...obviously you DO have them. Now it's time to tap into them and use them. But that doesn't mean you need to tell people everytime you get a flash about them. Keep it to yourself and make mental notes of it. Be sutble about things. You can do it. You just need to know you can. =)

autumn · Joined: 18 Jul 2006 Posts: 11

I am deeply indebted to all of you who have sincerely responded to my post, and I greatly appreciate all the views. Frankly speaking, it's not just about feeling what others are feeling. There is a lot more happening behind the curtain than what I let on, that made me DO NOT want to have these so-called abilities. But, these things only happen in the movies, no one would believe me anyway even if I outline everything in detail.

Simply put, I will practise what I have been told here, and hopefully someday I would be able to use this ability to help people and eventually find the answer to the reason WHY. The kindness that all of you have shown, shall remain always with me. God bless you people.

AstralAspirant · Joined: 18 Jun 2006 Posts: 17

Fen Zero · Joined: 12 Apr 2005 Posts: 363

Greetings!

See, we all have a certain amount of intuition...and, why not? Psychiq powers!

SO what happened to you, Autumn, may have been intuition or psychiq abilities, which are really related. No coincidenses, unless you were making this up....

If you can control your abilities GOOD! Very Happy

.. if you canÂ´t, well I canÂ´t see any danger, unless you were starting to know when and how people would die or things like that, I think you could feel a bit guilty..

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